Tuesday, December 06, 2005
{ 6:31 PM }
dun feel like sleeping yet. but need to wake up early tmr... as in later. confusing. lily's flying back.. so gonna meet up for breakfast. i hope i can wake up.
i realise i dunno what's going on in my friend's lives after graduation. i sense
d i s t a n c e. and oh how i hate it. this experience comes every few years.. but i never grown to quite get used to it. in fact, i fear it. more than anything else. of course, it's not possible that everyone rings me up and inform me on how and what they are doing everyday.. and im not someone who rings pple up and say hello. because im afraid. afraid of rejections. afraid of realising how things are different alr. i contradict myself a little too often. i know i often expect too much out of life. expect too much from others and im nothing myself. i know i can blame no one but myself.
time heals wounds and breeds new wounds. how true.
i want to hide. and never come out again. but it's difficult. and impossible.
