Thursday, April 06, 2006
{ 5:12 PM }
i dunno what things will be like between me and ____ after last night.
i know i gave excuses in the beginning, giving you the idea that there may be a possibility. (p/s: this is not my love story lar. ha) but after so many excuses from me.. and me making it soooooo obvious.. you're still bugging me. hey, won't you ever give up? it's not that im against the idea of
that.. it's just i have some prejudice against
there. it got past limits last night, and so, im sorry for the way my message went. sighs. i hope we're fine. i dun wanna see our friendship for 6 + + turning sour.
susan was so right about me. i shun from pple who bugs me. even the closest friends.
and because of how straightforward i am to these pple, i end up losing my friends. but actually not really. cos i dun usually
fan lian with good friends.. i'd tolerate and tolerate.
last night, however, was the first exception.
whatever lar. if god planned the way it is.. that's the way it is.
oh well. i miss some of my friends. i miss my cotton bud. havent seen you for ages! hur hur. when's dinner? and i miss kwan. and of course, i miss de de and zhu tou. i miss soek too. but no worries, im gonna see de de and zhu tou on sat! ha. soek.. i hope you'd come. dunno if you're trying to avoid us.. but we really miss you! hyuk.
friends friends friends. they walk in and out of your life. but i really wanna keep them by my side and not lose sight of them. is that ever possible? hmm.
i love my bestie. sandie lim pei yee. heh. she's the one who really really click with me. as in.. we always think of the same thing at the same time. and i think she knows me damn well. which is a bad thing i think. hur. lolx. and also, i always feel very comfortable when im out with her.. even after not meeting/in-contact for a loooooong time. and she's so funny, i feel so tired from laughing after hanging out with her each time. hehe.
and there's cotton bud. wong linhui. this girl is always so busy to meet up with me. hur hur. *sulks* haha. but still, i love her a lot.. cos i know she's in love with me too. haha. meet me soon, ya?
who's next? susan tng xiao ling. one whom i got to know so long ago. 12 + of friendship. it's quite a feat i must say. she's the one whom i can say almost anything to. with her, all my problems will no longer be problems.. they become a topic. get what i mean? haha, no you dun. she has a screw loose up there... but that's what i love about her.
mei na is a bit like susan. feel that i can tell her all my probs too.. weird, but i dunno why. but this girl likes disappearing acts. i hope she dun disappear too long each time. hur.
last but not least, my xiao mao mao.. katherine. always so encouraging. always so nice and understanding (to my late replies). ha. pple often sneer at the idea of having a pen-pal in such modern times. but i think it's a special kind of friendship. you wun understand if you dun have a pen-pal. heh.
hm. of course, there are other good friends that i have by my side apart from the above. but somehow.. i feel that these are the ones who treat me as a friend from their hearts (kinda weird expression.. but pardon me.. i cant think.. very tired).
to: zhu tou
bu shi wo bu ba ni dang hao peng you... zhi shi wo jue de hao xiang que shao le yi xie dong xi. ke neng ni bu liao jie.. dan wo ye shuo bu chu lai. ni mei ci wen wo you mei you ba ni dang cheng hao peng you.. wo dou bu zhi dao zen yang hui da. shuo shi ye bu dui.. shuo bu shi ye bu shi. suo yi wo mei ci dou wu yan yi dui. xi wang ru guo ni zhen de kan dao wo xie de zhe pian zi bu hui tai nan guo. ru guo shuo yao wo ba ni fang zai wo xin zhong de qi zhong yi ge wei zi.. ni bi pu tong peng you zai te bie yi xie.. dan bu shi wo suo wei de hao peng you. mei ge ren suo wei de hao peng you de ding yi dou bu yi yang. geng he kuang.. hao peng you zhe san ge zi ye zhi shi ge cheng hao.. ni bu bi tai jie yi. ni hen te bie.. yin wei wo xin zhong de zhe ge wei zi.. ye zhi you ni yi ge. wo hen xing yun.. yin wei wo zhi dao ni ba wo dang cheng ni hen hao de peng you. wo qi shi ye hen gan dong. you shi ting dao ni hao bu bao liu de shuo chu ni dui wo you duo zai hu.. wo dou hen gan dong.. zhen de. wo fei chang gan xie ni gei yu wo de zhe fen you yi. xi wang wo men de you yi neng chang chang jiu jiu. yi bei zi de peng you! jia you arh zhu tou.
once again, i want to say.. dear friends.. i love you all. ( i know i said this not too long ago.. but lately i feel very strongly for friendship)
this is a long long entry. im tired now. nights.
