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Thursday, August 27, 2009 { 12:42 AM }

finally. sth to focus on. sth to do for my fyp. hah.
have been reading the same materials for the past two weeks or so.. knowing that there'll be a journal presentation soon.. but yet dunno what's our individual topic so dunno what to focus on. finally, he sent out the topics.

every time i go too school.. when my other course mates see me in shorts, they will ask "no lab arh?" and i will give the same reply each time "i havent started" den they will always react in the same way "HUH! you slacker!" or "HUH? HOW COME??" haha. and i will tell them the story all over again. den the next time they see me, they will ask for the progress of my lab.. which, i have no idea myself. the last time i checked, the cabinets were not up yet. hah. well. but my prof reassured us again and again. he sounds so confident that we cannot dun trust him. his fav phrases are "sure sure sure...!" and "dont worry dont worry" and "it'll be good for you...." all his accent. and esp when he says "sure!", i need to control myself and not laugh out loud.
im just having mixed feelings. i dun really wanna start lab work so soon.. cos im lazy. ha. but everybody else started le.. so.. you know. peer pressure. haha. but im not over stressed, yet. im enjoying how i wake up at 9 plus everyday when everybody reach school at 9 plus 10. keke.

im talking a lot of crap. dun even know what im saying myself.

let me crap a bit more. warning: it's really gonna be crap.

today as i was walking along the foyer in science, i saw this little tiny kitten. and i feel so much to own a little kitten. cats are really smart animals. and i like their coolness and how practical they are. unlike dogs. imagine i have a cat, lily wun want come my house anymore. but the kitten was really cute. but so poor thing cos it seems hungry. den when i reached harbourfront interchange, i saw this other cat. saw it before a few sems back i think. it's very recognisable.. cos it's always limping. den today i saw it limp limp limp, heartbreak sia. why like that. i old le issit.. feeling bad for stray animals. last time i wun de. haha. next time i old le i will be those bring food go feed stray cats and pigeons kind. keke. k maybe not pigeons. i hate birds.

this blog has been around for more than five years le. the posts in the first one or two years have been deleted before i made it public, for reasons i cant rem. unknowingly, i've been blogging for more than five years! time passes really quickly doesnt it! comparing to others who blog, im considered those who blog really consistently bah.. though most of the time it's just the mundane rubbish of my boring life. nothing very thought-provoking, unlike many others. just some feelings bottled in me (though i dun really say it out explicitly still), or my everyday experiences. well, i guess ive grown used to using this as an avenue to jot down my thoughts and my experiences. it's not so much meant for others to read, it's more for myself. sometimes, i will just look into my archives and read posts of the past. i realised i've never explicitly write about the unhappy things though. so when i read my previous posts, i only know i felt frustrated back then, but usually i cannot recall specfically what happened.. which is good in a way isnt it. hm.. if you've survived the long-winded crap above till here, let me tell you a secret.. there're hidden messages in this blog sometimes. if you're alert enough you'll catch it. and they're always my deepest and darkest thoughts. things not meant to be said, things not meant to be heard. if you're "lucky" enough to have caught this deepest and darkest side of me, keep it to yourself. it's not meant to be shared. and if you think you know.. think again. hah.

enough of my rubbish.

time to focus on my presentation.